After a long time, I saw her… she seems as if she needs me.
“How’s her family right now Sir,” I ask when the doctor came out of ICU.
She’s really injured a lot and her husband is no more now, but we managed to save her kid,” doctor said to me sadly, I was really shocked when I heard that her husband is dead now and she was really in deep pain and was still in critical condition and was completely unaware of her husband death. I really don’t know how she’s gonna react when she’ll know her husband died. While replying to me the doctor said to me to get some medicine because no one is here to look after her and help her.
I really don’t know, how this happened to her, when they were brought into the hospital some witnesses saw the exact condition and those who brought them saw the real accident. They were in the car and her husband was driving, suddenly they got a serious accident.
I remember our first meet… it’s a really unusual meeting. It’s my first day of a job after so much struggle to get the job, I had gotten a chance to work in Bank.
I remember, I had so many dreams, goals regarding my career, I was really focusing on my future and career but my destiny was designed differently and God has different plans for my life. When I went to join the bank on the first day, I entered into bank suddenly I saw a girl who was about my age by her appearance, as soon as I saw her for the first time, I was flat on her then and there, her alluring personality, charming and stunning light on her face which was really and incredibly making me crazy.
I was really speechless and impressed with her world’s cutest smile ever seen. I was after a long time happy and excited too because my first day on the job and saw someone who was made for me. I started thinking a lot about her.
I remember when I entered the Bank gate, I ask from a security guard about the Bank manager cabin. He indicated rudely I don’t know why but maybe because he didn’t recognize me or so many customers come to complain every day and ask from him. Whatever the reason but he was really not happy with his job. Somehow I told him that this’s my first day of the job, he really smiled differently while indicating, I didn’t understand why he did that but I didn’t care because I was continuously looking at that girl. I thought she was an employee of Bank because she had had to wear a Bank identity card on her neck.
I remember, I directly entered in Bank manager cabin, I was thinking about Bank manger that he’ll old, frustrated, rude man, when she entered in the cabin, “kindly can you call the bank manager,” I said to her.” I am the manager,” he rudely said. I don’t what happened to all staff of that bank because everyone was really looking frustrated rude.” are you kidding me, I wanna meet Mr lovely Singh,” I told the branch manager’s name. “For your kind information my name is Lovely Singh and I am here Bank manager of this branch,” she again replied aggressively and angrily.
“See….. this is my first day and doesn’t do my ragging,” I again replied to her because I thought that she’s joking and ragging me. “Are you crazy or what, you can’t understand what I’m saying and can’t see these pictures, while showing her pictures hanging on her backside wall.
I remember after that meeting she called one staff and said to him to arrange training for me and also said to me to be focused on work only because the way I was watching her for the first time she recognized that.
I remember while going out of her cabin I said to my colleague that is she really a branch manager or she’s playing with me, he aggressively said that she’s the branch manager and I’ll get to know about her.
I remember when I listened that I said to him shockingly that such a young girl is a branch manager. After that day, my training was conducted and then job gradually,
I was really enjoying my job at the initial time of my job because there was no such kind of pressure and everyone was so nice to me. Finally, my first salary day came and I got my first salary. I was really happy and had given a small treat to everyone. I started thinking about lovely Singh because her attractive and impressive personality made me so much crazy that I had planned a lot but as we all know that God’s plan is far different and better than other plans.
I was trying a lot to know about her personal life but since I was new so I was not opening up with others and they were too.
I remember after a few months later I decided to purpose her because I was not able to control my emotions and feelings for her. I wanted to tell her my feelings and love for her. The day I thought to express my feelings, we got to know that she got married. It’s a love marriage and staff were saying that both were loving each other since childhood. She married her childhood friend.
I remember I was crying a lot because I was really and deeply in love with her and she was too recognizing my feelings and emotions but she didn’t wanna talk about that.
I remember she gave a grand reception party and invited everyone and the next day everyone attended that party except me only because I was hurt deeply and crying inside alone. The next day of party people was talking about her marriage and all. They asked me the reason why I didn’t attend the reception party. I simply said to them that I was not feeling well. Even though I told them to lie but they were understanding and aware of my feelings.
I remember when she came to the office after a few days of honeymoon holidays, I decided to resign within a few months of my job, I was overthinking about her and playing with my career. Finally, I went to her and “Hi….. can I come inside,” I requested her. “Yes, what happened,” she allowed me. “I wanna resign from my job,” while entering into her cabin I said openly. “Are crazy, we’ll talk later,” While saying this, she suggested me to talk later about that.
“Ok… But I have already decided to resign,” while saying this I came out of the cabin.
I remember I was doing wrong with my career because only a few months were passed by that job. I was resigning emotionally and sadly. After that conversation, she approached me many times and tried a lot to know the exact reason because she was answerable to the management and I was really doing good in my job performance-wise, discipline wise. She came to me and “see….. I don’t know about your reasons to resign but I am accountable to the HR and management,
so I wanna know the exact reason,” she asked requisitely. “I am so sorry, I can’t tell you the reason,” I replied while hiding my emotions and feelings. “I need to know otherwise, you’re not allowed to resign,” she forcefully asked me again. “What do you mean, I am gonna resign anyhow,” I cleared my stand and left the place aggressively.
I remember after that she tried a lot to convince, even though she was knowing my feelings and emotions for her but she wanted to know from my mouth. The next day morning, I resigned officially and systematically. The moment I resigned, she immediately came to me and “you’re playing with your career, you’re not gonna get a good job like this again with this much experience, you’re doing great here and few months are left to complete one year, at least complete one year and go,
” While coming to me she aggressively and rudely said to me. “I know what I am doing, I can’t live my life like this,” I was about to express my feelings but controlled my emotions and words. “So tell me the reason, why you stopped yourself,” she again insisted on me but I was really not gonna tell her the reason.
“Ok….. I am accepting your resignation but on condition of that as per company law you have to complete either one year or three months notice period because you have signed a bond and after that, you’ll not gonna get any job of our bank,” she replied. “Ok… I accept this, I’ll serve three months’ notice period,” she finally accepted my resignation.
I remember after that day, I every day regret myself because I was doing wrong to myself and with my career but I was really emotionally broken and hurt so I didn’t see anything right or wrong. After that she a lot tried to know my feelings and she always supported me but I was not really comfortable with her because I didn’t wanna make any trouble in her married life.
I remember on the last day of my job, all staff gave me a farewell party and all wished me for great career and life. She came to me and “I know the exact reason for leaving this job, I am not a kid who can’t understand. I can see and understand your feelings if you’re hurt by me so please forgive me,”
when she came she opened up herself, I was really not aware of her life but she recognized everything about me and my feelings. “See….. it’s my fault so I should be punished with pain. I am so sorry that I have special feelings for you and I can’t stop feeling like this for you so it’s better for everyone that I should be far from you,” I too expressed my feelings and she really appreciated that.
I remember her last word was “best of luck,” but my luck, destiny was there and I was leaving unwontedly, unreasonably and illogically.
I remember after that I struggle a lot to get the job but thanks to the people who supported me to be who I am today right now.
“Now she’s out of danger and her daughter is too perfectly in good condition. But since she’s still in comma, she’ll be getting treatment for few more days and then we can say to you for their condition,” Doctor came to me and explained the exact condition. “Ok… Thanks a lot, can I see her daughter and her,”
I asked permission. “Yes…… of course, you can see,” she permitted me to see and stay with them. While seeing their condition I can only say that right now she is in deep pain and when she’ll listen her husband died, I can’t imagine how she’ll react and I can’t even feel the exact feelings of her. I think she needs someone who can be with her at that moment and I am not gonna leave her in this condition anyhow. I don’t know how to face her after so many years but I’ll have to do this for her and for my love, I still love her and would be loving till my last breath.
She needs time to recover from her pain and I am sure she’ll come out of this situation but how long it’ll take to be a normal condition, it’s the only my concern at this moment, but I’ll wait patiently to a new beginning.
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