Reserved 

I’m a reserved kind of person, I do my work from 9 to 6 and come back home and have a shower then talk to my family on phone and then have my dinner after that I sleep as early as possible.

 

My colleagues and friends go out every day to enjoy their life, they go on a long drive, on beaches, in night clubs, they exactly live their life as per their wishes or trends.

 

I remember, on my friend’s birthday, he had arranged a night out party in the desert. He forced me to come with them.

 

“I never request you on any night out party but it’s my birthday, that’s why I’m forcing you, you’ll definitely enjoy, trust me, we’ll have fun far from the city in the desert,” my friend was trying to convince me. I first told him that I’m not comfortable going out at night for party and all,  but they insisted on me a lot, so I finally agreed.

 

I remember, we packed the bags and baggage and ready to go, we’re almost ten people,  we all were friends. There were four girls out of ten people. While traveling by car, They were screaming, enjoying in the car, they were singing, teasing each other, fighting each other.

I remember that day too I was feeling alone, feeling sleepy, actually that was my time to bed, so I was missing my bed, friends started forcing me to participate in that enjoyment moment but I had never done all that weird things.

 

In fact, I thought that those people were being nonsense, whatever they were doing, I guess, it’s is obvious and common in friends circle.

 

After few hours journey, we reached our destination, we first celebrated his birthday, and then they became crazy, they started again forcing me to do all those weird things but I was really not happy with their behavior and forcing them to go back home,

 

Now they started getting annoyed and behaving rudely from me, I was really behaving like a kid, I don’t know because of my upbringing or culture in which I have never been in that kind of situation. For them, it’s really normal and for other people too but I was really not comfortable with those things. After that, they clearly said to me that from next time, they are not gonna take me out anywhere.

In fact, I too felt that I’m not made for all these things, I was too saying then that I’m not gonna come again on these kinds of adventures and celebrations.

 

Somehow I had to be patient and, control my anger. Even though I was really feeling bored and upset, I pretended to be normal in front of them. I just wanted to be alone at that moment. There were too much noise and crowd, I walked away from them just for some time. I was sleepy, annoyed, sitting alone,

 

suddenly saw a cute, innocent, gorgeous girl at that place. I have never been in a conversation with any strange girl especially situation like that, alone, quiet place. But when I saw her, I don’t know but some kind of feeling came into my heart Since I had never gone through that feeling and situation and never had an experience that kind office situation but still I wanted to feel same, what I was feeling at that time after looking her again and again.

 

Something magical happened at that point in time, a different kind of wave and winds coming in my soul, a sweet pain inside my heart. Whenever we were making her eyes contact with each other accidentally,  my heart beats started running faster than normal speed, we really tried a lot to avoid our awkward situation. After some time she left the place and I too came back to the camp. I couldn’t see her again after that moment.

 

I remember, when I went back, they were still enjoying, that time, and I too started feeling different now and happy after that magical moment happened in my life. I too wanted to dance, sing and do all same nuisance things whatever my friends were doing at that time, but I still managed my same boredom image in front of them.

 

After all enjoyment, we started packing our bags and ready to leave, my eyes were searching for her, I was hoping that she’ll meet me somewhere nearby but I couldn’t find her presence there. I don’t know, how but all of sudden, I was changed and felt alive.

We started our journey back home by car, It’s almost morning and I hadn’t slept a little bit, but still feeling fresh.

 

A few hours of continuous driving, suddenly my friend stopped the car. We started asking what happened, why have you stopped the car. One strange guy came to us and started requesting that his car is stopped functioning so just adjust one friend at least. They were sending one by one. Suddenly that same cute girl came inside the car and I was shocked after looking her, my eyes were opened, I was speechless but really fortunate that I was able to see her again and this time she was in front of me opposite to my seat and it’s long journey, we were still very far from city.

 

I was sitting backseat of the car because of my boring nature in the group, she happily sits down and smiled slightly after looking me.

 

Now it’s a really different journey for me. This was one of the best and the most remarkable and memorable journeys of my life. Initially, I was feeling shy and not able to speak with her.

 

My friend who was driving the car, he suddenly introduced himself and then one by one gradually all introduced themselves. At last, I spoke to her “hi. My name is James,” I finally introduced myself after a long pause and my turn.

 

“My name is Gracie, nice to meet you guys,” she replied to me and to all.

 

I don’t know, is she like me, a reserve, lonely, bore kind of person or because of that situation she was behaving. But she seems to be the same whatever she was showing herself in front of us.

 

We started talking after my so much effort.

“I work for an IT company in Dubai, what about you,” I spoke about my profession and asked about her.

“Great, I don’t work,” she replied with a very low tone.

 

“Ohh, so you’re a student,” I asked again.

 

“No, I’m not……” she replied and then paused herself.

I had just started talking to her suddenly all of my friends started insulting in front of them because of my boring life. They were laughing at me for my lifestyle.

 

I felt embarrassed at that point in time because she was really feeling awkward in our friend circle.

 

But she was too like me so I was not alone different in this world who’s reserved and unique.

 

I remember after that we talked a lot but she was not really interested in talking much about herself, maybe because we were strangers for her. All sudden we reached our destination, though it’s a long journey I didn’t know how it got short and we reached very soon.

We first dropped her in front of her home and then we moved to our way home.

One thing I got to know and that’s her address.

 

After a few days later I was just passing through her home, I thought to meet her, I was not sure whether she was in-home or not but I tried my luck and went to her apartment.

 

I remember when we had dropped at her apartment building she had told her apartment number.

I was not comfortable to go her home like that so I didn’t knock the door and was coming back to my car, suddenly one voice came

 

“James, hello,” it’s her sweet, innocent voice. “Hi, how are you?” I replied while feeling embarrassed because she recognized my name, she still remembered my name and my face.

 

“I’m good, what about you, come up,” she replied and requested me to come upstairs.

 

“Now I’m all right,” I replied.

 

“What?” She asked. “Nothing, I’m coming up,” I replied and went upstairs, she opened the door and said.

 

“Why you didn’t ring the bell,” she asked me as if she was knowing that I came specially for her.

 

“I……… actually came to meet my friend here in this building,” I lied to her even though I didn’t have any friends living there.

 

“Don’t lie, I saw when you were coming, you came up and immediately went down,” she said to me because she was watching me.

 

“Yeah, actually……” I couldn’t speak anything, I was really speechless at that moment.

 

“So, all good, wanna have coffee,” she asked me while blushing because she understood my intention to come there.

 

“Yup, so you live alone here,” I asked.

 

“No, my friend shares this apartment with me.

We had a long conversation and had fun together because of the same nature, people think to us that we were lonely.

 

I remember, after that day we are started meeting outside and very soon we’re comfortable enjoying together the company.

 

I remember, my friends had stopped asking me for any tour and night out celebrations after that night incident.

But I didn’t care about my friend’s attitude because now I was busy and happy with Gracie.

 

After a few days later, one of my friends had invited me for a night party, they had again forced me to go out with them, but I had to go with Gracie, so I lied to them and said that I’m neither feeling well nor interested going in the night. They forced me a lot but this time I didn’t agree. However, they went to a celebration without me.

Gracie and I had to go on date somewhere, so we went together.

 

I remember when we reached there and had fun suddenly I saw some of my friends, they were too there doing party, I tried to first hide and escape from them but one of my friends saw me. When they all saw me, Gracie, they were shocked and angry. They started abusing me in front of all, they insulted me a lot because I rejected to join them because I didn’t wanna have their company in those days, they started blaming me that because of a girl, I had changed myself. They insulted Gracie too badly in front of me.

 

I remember when they said about Gracie, I lost my control and started fighting with them.

 

Gracie was too angry on me and left the place while crying. I tried contacting her but she was not ready to pick my calls. I went to her home but she was not interested in meeting with me, I tried a lot to convince her that my friends are like that but she was not even ready to listen to me.

 

She told me that’s why she doesn’t wanna have friends and any relationship because it doesn’t suit her. Very soon I started feeling the same as Gracie was feeling that I am a weird kind of person, boring, a depressed lonely, person. I too stopped talking with Gracie and with my friends.

 

I remember, after that my life was really worst, I was going in depression, I was not able to focus on my work, my personal life was completely destroyed.

 

Then After almost 15 days, my friends realized that they were wrong, they had been seeing me in bad condition, they were really feeling guilty for my worst condition. They wanted to apologize for their bad behavior but I was not talking with them and ignoring them completely.

 

One day finally they came to me apologized for whatever had happened that night. But I was not really ready to listen to them because they had insulted Gracie and because of them Gracie left me.

 

They tried a lot to convince me but I simply didn’t care anything.

I remember that day at night, suddenly I got a call from Gracie number, I don’t know who’s another side of the phone but that person was in hurry and saying that I need to come to see Gracie.

 

I was asking him that what’s happened to her, is she all right but he didn’t say anything, he was looking serious, he didn’t explain anything but only sent me the location. I was really shocked and worried for her if any misbehaving has happened with her. I was not able to control my emotions because of her love.

 

When I reached that location, I didn’t find anyone, it’s a desert nearby city, I thought she would have come for the party or something. People were there enjoying their life, again they were doing some weird things,

 

suddenly I saw all my friends, I was avoiding them but I couldn’t do so. They came to me and again they requested forgiveness, they were really feeling guilty for their behavior. This time I was really worried about Gracie. Anyway, I forgave them and asked whether they had seen Gracie because the call came from that location.

 

I explained everything to them, they assured me that nothing has happened with Gracie, she’s absolutely all right, actually, they had arranged all these things because our love story started from that location and they wanted to see us together again at that location.

 

One of my friends indicated to me that she’s there sitting alone waiting for me.

 

I went there and said “hi…….” I wasn’t able to say anything except hi and without asking her permission, I just hugged her so tightly that my all tensions, worries got released immediately. She couldn’t speak anything but replied with a smile and submitted herself in my arms.

 

“I’m so sorry, I should have responded positively to you,” she replied in a low emotional voice. “No…. I’m extremely sorry, I should have come to you again and again until you would have forgiven me,” I replied to her.

 

We both were understanding our situation, and we both said sorry to each other and swear that we are gonna change ourselves for a better lifestyle. We are not gonna live our life with reserved or boring tag.