“Hi, what are you doing here alone, why you didn’t come on my marriage ceremony,” she asked me loudly while coming to me. I don’t wanna see you go from my life, I didn’t have the courage to do so.” replied while swiping my tears again.
“Don’t cry please, you know I can’t see you crying.” She replied. “Don’t come here.” I warned her. “ok…., I’m coming there,” she replied. “ I am coming there, you know what happened here last time.” While speaking that I warned her to go back. I still remember what happened last time when we were talking to each other.
Actually, we have been coming here to this beachside since childhood. This is our favorite spot whenever we feel sad or happy we come. She’s Aliza, she’s my childhood friend, we have so many memories since childhood
I love her a lot, but never tell her, I never share my feelings for her. She understands my feelings, she even respects my feelings but she can’t do anything because she loves someone else.
The guy whom she loves just came into her life and took my life away from me. I remember last time when we met here I was trying to tell her my feelings but I was not able to express my feelings and my love for her.
“So finally you are going, you want to get rid of me,” I asked her with a sad and annoying face with a broken heart in a low and weak tone. “Are you serious you’re getting married,” I asked again, just wanted to listen no from her mouth.
“Yes…., yeah…. I am serious, I’m getting married,” she replied with a big smile. I remember when she told me that she’s getting married her face was shining differently, she was blushing with a completely red face.
“So finally what you wanted for your life, you are getting that person as your life partner,” I asked her again just wanted to reconfirm that is she really happy or just trying to be happy.
“Yes, I’m happy because I love him a lot. He is my life, John is perfect for me,” she replied with full confidence as if she is knowing him since childhood. “He loves me unconditionally, he’ll never make me sad, unhappy, he cares a lot for me.”
She started praising him as I have never cared about her, only cares, just came in her life. “How can someone be so perfect, how can someone be so lucky, how can someone be so adorable, how can someone be so lovable.”
She said because John is the perfect match for her. “I think maybe you are right because I also feel genuine that he’s perfect.”
I appreciated her decision because I didn’t have any choice or opinion to tell her that he is not perfect for her. He is a really nice guy. By the way, John is Aliza’s fiancé. He is good looking, perfect soulmate for Aliza, perfect match,
I think so because I have been looking him for few months, they are compatible with each other, they care for each other, they love each other, he just came a few months back in her life.
I remember when we were children we used to care for each other, she always helped me a lot in exams, in preparation, saving from mom for my bad work, bad habits, we used to be the coolest friends since childhood until this John came in our life.
We have done so many weird things in our school and college life. I remember when we’re in school we used to be the protector of each other, no one used to dare to mess up with us.
I remember once when we went on one place we were chasing one family just we wanted to be in their family frame like they were tourists enjoying their family time, wherever they were going we were following them and when they were clicking pictures we were trying to be in that picture,
they were annoyed a lot from us, we had great enjoyment we were laughing a lot making different face just to spoil their photo season. After that, I don’t know-how, John came to her life that also because of that incident,
actually, they were John’s family. After that incident, John was very angry and wanted to meet us so that he could teach us lesson and manners so he came to us and started shouting and threatening me and when he saw Aliza he became silent, his anger became calm and he became so dumb that he was not able to speak.
That moment I understood and realized that Aliza is going very far from. I had always feeling for her but never say, after that incident I also felt like I’m a stranger, because I couldn’t able to hide my feelings. I decided that this is not going to happen long, I need to talk to her. I have to tell her that I love her a lot.
I don’t know what happened to our friendship when John came into her life, Aliza started spending less time with me, she got into his love so quickly that she didn’t give me a chance to tell her that I love her most, my love for her is unconditional,
I was unable to express my love, that’s why I also started maintaining distance from her, she was going far from me, very far and so I also tried to be very far, very far because I never wanted to be hurdle in between John and Aliza life and always wished them for happiest life.
I remember those days when John came after that incident, he came to me and said sorry to me, and he went to Aliza and apologized for his bad behavior, we also apologized and said sorry to him because we ruined his family enjoys time their get together moment.
After that moment John started meeting Aliza and always found reasons to meet her and the same Aliza started doing. She also used to find excuses to meet him. I remember one day we all together enjoying suddenly he came to Aliza and then,
“See I don’t wanna waste even a single second after realizing that I love you, I don’t know when it started, I just realized right now that you’re the perfect one for me and I think maybe I am perfect for you,
so I love you, do you love me,” I can’t imagine the words which I was not able to say since childhood, those magical words he came and said in one shot.
The feelings which I was having, the loves for her which I have never expressed to her since childhood, he simply came and said like it’s normal, but it was not normal because this moment was for me, this is the moment actually special moment I wanted to make sense but someone just saw her and expressed within a few days.
Actually she’s so gorgeous pretty beautiful adorable that anyone can fail in love with her and no one can hide or stop himself to express his feelings to her, I was and in fact, I am the most stupid person in this world who never express his feelings to his loved one.
Now what should I do, I don’t know but I don’t know what she’s going to do, what is her feeling for John, does she accept his love or say no to him, I think she’ll say no because she just met him, we are friends from childhood, she has never shared her feelings of love from me.
“So tell me, Aliza I’m waiting for your response, do you love me,” he again asked Aliza to respond like forcing her on gunpoint. I was thinking positively at the same time. “tell Aliza what you want, tell him that you don’t have any feeling for him, tell Aliza you don’t love him,”
I was more curious than him because I wanted to know how can be possible that someone just came a few days back and purposed her, it doesn’t mean that she can also feel the same.
“Yes……. I do, I love you too,” she replied after a long time. Her reply killed me and my feelings, I was wrong thinking that she is my best friend and will be always mine, but she just ruined my trust and my heart. I remember the moment she said yes, I was shocked and started crying, she didn’t even see my tears, they started hugging themselves,
kissing each other, I was speechless was not able to see all those heart burning crap, so I left the place immediately because she also felt same as John feels, I thought now my duty is over, I was like nothing and no one for her. As usual, I went to the same beach area where we most of the time spent together,
I was crying alone, trying to tell myself that I’m not perfect for her, I was regretting that I had never expressed my love to her. I started maintaining distance from her since that day.
She was too busy with him and she didn’t realize that I have gone very far from her. When John purposed her for marriage she didn’t know what to say, so she called me after a long time, before that day she used to call but I used to ignore her call or if I used to pick then I used to talk very less as possible.
She called me several times, I didn’t pick her call, suddenly I hear one voice, that was her voice, “Where is he? What is he doing, why he doesn’t pick my call, why he doesn’t reply to my messages, why he’s ignoring me,” her voice was so loud that I could hear easily, she was in my home asking about me from my mom.
“He’s inside his bedroom, I don’t know what happened to him, he doesn’t come out from his room, he doesn’t go out much, what he does all the time inside the room.” My mom started detailing my behavior, my changed attitude, my daily routine.
“Ok….. I talk to him, aunty. I’ll see what is happened and happening in his life. I’ll take care of him, you don’t worry.” While replying to mom she came up to my room and then, What happened to you?” While entering my room her first question on me. “Nothing happened, why?”
I replied to her. “Why don’t pick my call? Why you don’t meet me, why you don’t reply to my messages? What happened to you? Are you all right? Why you are not talking to me? Why you don’t take care of me?”
A bunch of questions started throwing on me without asking for my feelings and started blaming me for my changed attitude. “I talk to you, I reply to your messages, I care for you, these days I’m busy in some assignment, I’m not getting time to come out of the home,” I replied with full confidence that I was perfectly all right.
“Don’t lie, I know you better than anyone else since childhood, you are hiding something,” she again started annoying me. “I told you nothing is worried about me, I’m great, I don’t need anyone care.”
This time I behaved rudely and so badly that she became upset and then, “Ok fine, don’t tell me anything don’t share your problem, you think I am nothing for you, you think I am no one for you, I came to share my feelings, my happiness.” the moment she said to me, I asked her immediately,
“What kind of feelings, what do you want to share, which kind of states of happiness you are talking about, tell me.”
I became so aggressive and curious that I could have opened up all my emotions and feelings for her, I waited for her response. I thinking that she broke up with John. “He purposed me for marriage,” she replied with a smile. When she said that my face and excitement were so dull and low that I could have killed myself.
“What? What …. I didn’t get, what did you say just,” I asked again as if I couldn’t understand but I understood. “who purposed you for marriage,” I was again shocked and upset when she told me. John….. or who else…. John came to me today and purposed me for marriage,
I came here to ask favors, your advice, I wanted you to tell me, suggest me what should I do, but instead of listening to me you became so rude and you don’t have time to listen to my feelings, now I don’t need your advice, I will do what I think best for me. Thanks, I’m going, hopefully we’ll meet soon at my wedding.
Please get some time for my marriage ceremony.” she replied and turned back and was about to go. I wanted to stop her and wanted to say that don’t ever leave me, I can’t live without you, you’re my life, you’re everything for me, you’re the only special one, but I could not stop her,
she was going, I always regret that thing why I did let her go, why I shouldn’t stop her and told her my feelings because she was happy, she never loved me, both are perfect each other. I let her go. I still remember after that day, we never met until her marriage got fixed, she was happy and enjoying her life, her marriage date was coming close.
One day I got a call from her, she wanted to meet at the same beach area place, I was not ready to meet but said ok we’ll meet. Hi, are you okay,” she said loudly from far while coming at the same beach area place through the rocks because we always come and go in that way.
“Yes, I’m ok,” I replied with the same tone while looking into her eyes. So you still come here,” she asked me. “Yeah, I will always come here, I feel relax and become calm when I come here, I sit here and remember our memories, we have so many memories in this place aren’t we,” I told her while smiling.
Yeah …. you are right, I really missed all those memories, it’s so much fun and memorable with you always, I’m gonna miss out these all things,” she replied while making a sad face. “Are you happy,” I asked her.
“Yes I’m happy,” she replied, she was really happy because she was getting married to someone special of her life whom she loves a lot. “So finally, you are going,” I asked again. “No I am not going anywhere, I’m just getting married, I will always be here. You will be always the best of the best friend.” She replied.
“So don’t go, don’t marry,” while making my cutest face, I requested her. “What,….what do you mean,” she replied shockingly.” I am kidding, he is really a nice guy. He’s perfect for, you both are made for each other,”
I told her. “I gotta go now, dad is calling me,” she replied and started going up. she’s going, I was feeling like, crying a lot right now, I was holding my emotions and my tears, I was wishing that something should have happened so that she will never leave me or I will not let her go from my life,
I was wishing to stop this moment for their whole life so that she can stay here with me forever. The place we used to sit was near to the beach, there were so many rocks and big stones we have been coming this sitting this place, nothing happened ever but, that day when she was going up through those slippery rocks, her legs were slipped out from the stones, and she started falling down on those big stones.
“Aliza,….Aliza,…. I started calling her when she was falling down, at the moment I couldn’t stop my emotions and tears, I started crying a lot and then “don’t worry I’m here, nothing will happen to you, you’ll be all right, I’m not gonna let you go, I will never let you go.”
I started saying like this While crying and tears were falling down on her face. She was being unconscious, she was not able to open her eyes, she was bleeding a lot, later her dad and I carried her and reached to a hospital, we started panicking in the hospital and shouting for emergency help.
Somehow doctors came, they brought her in ICU and started treatment immediately, Doctor assured us that she’ll be perfectly all right very soon. After few hours Doctor came out from operation theater and then “she is out of danger, under control, no need to worry, her blood is fallen a lot so she’ll have the weakness for few days, after a few days treatment you can take her home.
I remember when she was in a hospital, I used to stay the whole day and night and make sure everything is available whatever she needs,
I didn’t realize that I was expressing my feelings, emotions, and love to her while giving my all-time and energy in hospital, and she was realizing, this time she was recognizing my emotions, my cares for her, my all attention for her.
I was understanding what should I do, but she understood what she needed to do. After two days later John came, we had informed him at the same time of the accident, but he was not in town so he couldn’t come on the same day. He just came and meet her, asked about her condition, after that he was coming and going normally.
I remember when she was discharged from the hospital, she was so weak that she was not able to speak a lot, she was not able to smile. “Are you all right, you’re going to get married within a few days,”
I said to her, I wanted to cheer up her mood, so I told her, that be happy you’re finally getting married, now she was not looking happy, maybe because of an accident, she was not feeling well. Today is her marriage wedding and I’m here sitting alone and crying, I don’t want to attend her marriage ceremony because I can’t see her going with someone else.
“What are you doing here alone,” again one voice came and she was Aliza. “Nothing, don’t come here again, I’m coming there, today is your marriage, what are you doing here.” while standing up I spoke to her.
“Don’t worry, I’m not gonna, fall again, because it’s written in my destiny to get fallen here,” she replied while smiling. “So finally …. What about John and your marriage with John, I asked about her marriage.
“Problem is that you don’t understand, hold my hand,” while telling me to hold her hand, she came down. I held her hand and then, “don’t worry I’m not gonna leave your hand again. “Can you hold my hand forever,”
While saying that she indirectly purposed me with a smile. What…….What….. I am shocked and happy. “See I told you, you don’t understand, you are the most stupid and duffer guy I have ever loved,
I love you and I know you love me more than I do, but since you’re a stupid idiot, you will never show your love feelings to me, now don’t waste even a single second,”
while hugging me so tightly that It was the first time we were hugging like this and I was feeling like I don’t wish anything else from God except stopping this moment forever.Yes….yes…. yes…..,
I love you too, I can’t see my whole life without you, I can’t sit here alone my whole life without you. Thank you very much for realizing my true love.
– January 7, 2019
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